Bare feet cold and cramped
Feeling trapped so I cut it loose
That’s just what I do when trapped
Burn the rope that binds
Myself from my Faery self
Freeze the hand that tames
My shape is wild
And Unseen
For you don’t see the bleeding heart that needs a gentle hush
Tender hands and careful words
She's invisible to you
This spontaneous creek loving girl
All you see is the object of your lust
Undressed and hopping into water
Snowmelt pulsing
Valley soil eyes
Flesh-gleam tight with cold
Curves like winding streams
And there truly is no love in how
I was taken quickly against the trunk
Fae joy fading into gelid moss
As my heart congealed again
Into this human woman
Living in Survival
Tag: poetry
Breathing Sky
My bones crack as I shed my skin
Again and again and again
I’m twisting and reaching
Writhing and moaning
My grief waning like the grinning moon
Peeking out through winter mists
Ice clouds shrieking through my torso
Dragging old pain across the night sky
To be dissolved in ephemeral clouds that tremor away in fits
My stars align in lunar flight
Purifying my heart with these crystals of gods’ tears
I am alive and breathing sky
August Lilies
Here lilies lick the growing moon. The moon, he kisses back. They're opening, unwavering. Communing with the shining king. The scent of them, unpuckering. Their petals sweet, unfolding. Tilted back to feel his lips brushed upon their gentle tips, the perfumed drafts of supple forms dancing in the balmy dark beckon to his majesty, call him from his slumbering. And he is calling back to them, the stars around rejoicing. This ecstasy between them shines to the one in awe, fills the gentle August air with trembling passionate spice that only lasts for a few warm nights before they lie dormant again.
Cranberry Columbine Creek
It’s like the damp littered forest is obfuscating my senses. The way it smells, the way you smell, running heartily down the mountain. Catch me! Catch up to me! Cranberry columbine creek. To the boughing trees where I sink: The summer sun is lemonade fade through branches cool and long. The dawn and then the dusk. East to west. Colors falling downward in the glass; sweetened syrup. And I’m a wet mess river swamp thing; algae: Salmon skin shining in the confluence of tributary creek to river, river to sea. I left you in the dust of basalt but we were already breaking; the summer sun iced lemonade, cold beer, warm wine, and water-blood. The words we loved. We drank so much we consumed each other! We carved our names into sandstone as if they would stay, as if I would stay. Bardess. Seeker. Poetess. Seeker. In the trees elf-disc comes through in grenadine. I can’t stop facing cranberry colored, crimson-basted lemonade-draining creek. Cranberry. Columbine. Creek. Beloved, you died in those sugary woods. My heart, your heart; the same creature beating. Wrapped in fat, dripping dark black blood in a trap dangled from doorway. Cranberry columbine creek. I wanted to write, but you hung your heart in the trap and had it bleed before me, as if me writing would destroy us. Somehow you knew if I was given the space to write, I would leave. Leave! Inevitable that I leave. Destroyer. Seeker. Traveler. Seeker. Mountains high and glossed. Lemons squeezed and tossed, tossed then found, lost, and bound to standing rocks beside the stream looking down, not behind, but down. At cranberry columbine creek.
Bloodroot
Pulling red beets from black soil
Aggregate minerals tumbling down
On my knees in the sanctuary
Patella bones cradled by earth
Fertilized to crimson
To blood-red and black
Sweet-hearts-shaped and beating
With the sky a shade of dusk
To pull them right
Balsamic moon holding
In the open of my hands
Juice-trickle so like blood
Sacrificial bulbous
Root to spinous process
Bending every fiber
Of these aching limbs too real
Shifting
I. Oaken mold of trees Blood to rotting roots Baying on the ridgeline She-wolf hides her skins Skulking peeking cautious Takes on human form Changes with the moon Seeking fresher carcass II. Bred into the soil And bones bereaved of love A skeleton of winter And icicle drips Lofty slopes Her lair is dug Where trembling saplings Plead for sun Darkness here This Stygian wild Fed from grief And the trickling springs III. Weress woman Hides her skins The deepest trunk Of the eldest tree She dons them again On New Moon Just reclaimed From balsamic And so the cycle Meager existence Mountain heart Crevasse bound
Serpents Delve
I build things and then destroy them There are no endings Only a serpent spinning Is there a light at the end of the tunnel I can not Will not Long for it Darkness encircles me Darkness is me Melting into a cave of quiet My slick limbs smeared onto walls of stone This heart beats toward the slithering gold That pulls and taunts me toward its luster
Unrequited
This small and unrequited love
Frail and screeching like a newborn
Bleating shakily in thorny corners
Of the overgrown brambles of passion
I am left alone to care for
To find and hold and nurture
Unless I put it out of its misery
And bury its corpse in the earth
Shush, child.
It is a voice rising, shushing, rushing, looming: a sixth sense of memory.
Sick, what I knew inside: the lights just dim enough to see but not See.
Living forever in the moment of dusk’s aborted night.
It’s how I see you now: gloating, glowing, smirking, screaming, floating on your maddened cloud-throne.
The usurper, borne from hell, risen, and elated.
Peace out of reach.
The palette of reality grappled from beneath.
An old-found fear that you return as a ghost, some jaunting, creaking, moaning, luminescent thing.
Hugging me cold.
Graveyard dreams I wield and tend in the uniform of haunts.
Unadorned. Vehement towards love.
Numb.
To feel then, it would all end! Be burned into the sky again; it’s upside down in my head right now.
We stayed together in a rusting circle, entwined, limbs wriggling, trapped but loving it.
Ignorant.
No, I had to end it with your squirming, engorged self-worth like a massive vigil to my failing soul; crushed, interred deep in the worst bent position to die in.
Limbs creak.
Femur dregs.
And when I pull the blankets close and try to find some bit of quiet, I am sold again into the false.
Comfort, ha.
A foreign one.
As an heiress to buried pain, words fumble raggedly, and stumble through this.
Years of shame, grief, disbelief.
Push it down. Pushed down.
Down.
Forced to digest.
Royally crowned in a circlet of claws, forged from the fires of an enslaved love.
Descending into soil, descending into clay, dissolving into bedrock, yet still my pain will stay.
Coiled
Love decayed
Our clotted blood
Drake skin
On drooping boughs
Darkness Climbing
Crawling
Dreaming
Darkness Falling
Crying
Dreaming
All rotting flesh
Is soaked into the
Black
And teeming earth
Joyous in decay
Feeding on itself
Writhing life
And death alike
Your hungry arms
Two gleaming sides
of the serpent
Which consumes me
The coil
That consumes me
Writhing life
And death alike
So we descend
Into the earth
The dank abyss
Consumes us
Arms encoiled
Consumes us
Writhing life
And death alike